WHY? it’s like you don’t want people to read through your posts because why would you do that, WHY??? If I want to listen to music, I’ll press play myself. I don’t want the same 10 seconds of a song replaying over and over every time I go to the next page.
All of this!!!
actually mine doesn’t replay…& just as you can press play, guess-f’in-what you can press mofuggin pause.
So this guy REALLY wants to be with me. I have no idea why. No saying I’m not a good catch, what I mean is; in my mind we don’t/haven’t connected on a level that screams or even hints that we could be in a relationship. I feel no attraction towards him in that way. Sure he’s attractive, but there’s nothing else there for me. Nothing. And I told him “I don’t feel that connection”, because I’m honest, and I don’t want to mislead him. But he keeps trying.
On top of that I still have feelings for Cyril. I tried pushing them away, and I keep trying, and it’s not working. I miss him too much. I think of him a lot before I go to bed, and other random times during the day. I wasn’t sure if he was still interested but I asked if he had plans, and he said no, so I asked if he’d like to hang with me, and he said yes, and pushed forward with ideas. I’m not putting too much on it though, just gonna see where it goes. Because just the f’in thought of him puts a smile on my face and tears in my eyes. It’s ridiculous. And frustrating. So frustrating because I’ve never been here before! It feels so one sided when we’re apart…but when we’re together I can read his body language and see everything he tries to hide. Thus I am confused.
This has constantly been on my mind. Especially the first guy, Anthony. I just don’t think we’re compatible. Even if Cyril weren’t in the picture. Like he’s cool, we can be friends and hang out, and maybe it’ll become something more, but as of now? No. Definitely not.